I woke up this morning pretty late, but not late enough to make me late to work. Usually, I'd freak out because I'm a very time oriented person and one slip can ruin the whole day for me. (Yes, I'm one of THOSE people, super anal about shit ((LOL)). But not today. Today, followed by last night, is going to be a good day. (I hope so anyways.)
Every one of us has some sort of breaking point. Some, more than others, have high tolerance levels, and then we have some who are just so fragile, you just want to cringe. And then you have people like me, who are all over the place at the same time, is aware that we are, but can't do a thing about that. It sucks, most days but eh, that's life and God chose this one for me. It's my job to figure out why and work with it.
I have a very dear friend, who's life is like walking on eggshells. Every action is an impact and can effect her reactions ten times as much we absorb the minimum. We're kinda back and forth with this tug of war and it's an absolute mystery to me. Rather than being her friend, I feel like I need to be the coach or the Dr. or the detective to figure out WHAT in the world has triggered this.
She's been through this before and I was there 24/7. I never did figure out why it happened. It took about 6 mo. of total chaos for her to pass through this and one day, she was just normal again, no questions asked. 4 years have passed since then, and though we aren't close anymore, she calls again for support.
I will do my very best to help. But how can I help someone when I can't even help myself? Maybe it truly is reverse psychology. By helping her, I can heal myself? Who knows. I don't and don't think I ever will.
Add me already!
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