Tick Tock...

Ever stopped and thought, "Man, I FEEL old!!!" I'm not talking physically either. Although, the aging process does tend to suck at times. I'm referring to our mentality. Like, not a whole lot bothers you, you're much more laid back, and just over all wiser. You can actually say that "I've done that, and that, my friend, was stupid. Don't ever do it." I am literally, seeing, feeling and understanding the changes as I age. (I've mentioned a trillion times that I am very sensitive to even the slightest change in body and mind.)

I often times wonder how I am going to be when I get older. I'm talking about "wearing Depends- older. Am I going to be a cranky-ass, old fart, who on occasion, wets herself and is in total denial of it? Or am I going to be the sweet, old, lady who waddles around with a plate full of freshly, baked, "goodies" and force them down peoples throats as my good deed for the day, and knit just for the hell of it? ( I work at a retirement facility, and these characters are very true. )

I also cannot wait for my 30's. I personally think that I will ROCK in my 30's. I will start my family in my 30's, start my career in my 30's, and most importantly - look and feel comfortable with myself...IN MY 30's!

My 20's have been very, hmmmm....awkward for me. I haven't found my place yet. I'm trying new things, I'm developing a taste and dislike for things, people don't take you seriously even though you're considered an adult, I'm back and forth with so-so friendships, and I just suck at being 20. I've noticed that it tends to skip decades with me. The only other time I've felt like this was in my Pre-teen stage - ages 11 - 13. I wouldn't even blame that on puberty, I was just a lost and awkward child.

Aging has never been an issue with me. I'm not one of those prissy bitches who freak when a gray hair pops out. (I've had 3 so far!) Or a line underneath your eye that is permanently there. I think it's all fascinating and can't believe that I'm going through all this.

I think it's kinda....cool?

:)